catching up after a few long simultaneously blissful and hellish weeks of work. . . .

eleanor antin, what a character! totally new york rude without realizing it or does she actually relish in it? hilarious and controlling at the same time. i was sort of apalled at much of her talk, probably because she had already irritated me in my crit with her, then she was ultra snappy during her lecture and not willing to answer questions that were asked of her. but then we had a good day in visiting artists class which was funny. i think looking back now that my crit with her was so awful because she is so talkative, and i tend to get really quiet around very talkative folks. i hate feeling like i'm competing. thus, i didn't speak much about my work which just sort of caused her to go off on an awkward tangent about completely random things that had nothing to do with me! orange extension cord. . . mirrors. . .the hideous paint job on my back wall (which she said she liked!) but then the performance i did for her she liked and said there was not much to say about it because it spoke for itself! amazing to go from her saying that she couldn't say much about my work and that she couldn't help me to the other extreme! hilarious yes. also wondering why people continue to use photos of when they are young in press photo stuff when then you meet them and they are clearly much older! what is that about? of course i know, but it still seems ridiculous. but its good because i ended up getting something out of her visit, it forced me to think about this work that i hadn't thought about in awhile and to acknowledge the fact that i enjoy doing simple things in artwork.

so then cory arcangel (while this is not a photo of him here he was wearing the same fab sweater) coincided with that and he was totally great, totally hilarious. and the things we talked about that i will remember are that simple things are great, and he said the less you do, the better. and i'm totally into that right now and thinking about improv with my work- and the reason that i can't wait to be done with my stupid igloo- actually i think it is pretty cool the way i am thinking about it now- but at the same time realizing that i could have made it in some other manner much more easily than i have been doing it. but its good to realize it. i have had to suffer through this stupidity and horror of months of work on one thing to realize this. but that's fine, because now i know that this is it! yes. yes. yes.

in other thoughts. . . especially considering my flickr project with casey. it is great that i went from only 6 months ago being so wary and afraid of doing any collaborative projects to now. . .well, i just want to do a ton of collaborations! it is exciting and of course i want to still have a few things just of my own going but doing collaborations makes doing scary things easier and more fun. . .i think the new theme of my work process will be fun. in the past its definitely about masochistic and needlessly painful practices. i mean, i'm sure i'll still have a bit of that, but maybe balance it out more with other shit. but what is great is to work with all these people that i can trust.

ohhh, living is great. today was my impovisational day off from the studio. it was very nice indeed.

man, i can really go on and on with my little rant here, huh? i sort of love it in my selfish little way.